A new beginning

Good Year!

Its a new year and we should reinvent ourselves to experience new things in life. If this is your first time on my blog, then welcome. However if you have already been here, you would have noticed i changed the layout. This is to embrace a new start of my life. I have had a lot of these changes in the past months of my blog-life, but i am certain that i will stick with this one for the year to come.

Well, what to look forward to in 2011?

BE HAPPY!

Make a list of all your resolutions and put it somewhere you glimpse often. This will be acting as a reminder of what you wanted to achieve and what you wanted to become. I am writing my resolution here so i know what to do when i read the blog. This blog is probably going to be me trying to achieve my resolutions for the year.

MY RESOLUTION:

(note: in no particular order)

1. Achieve educational excellence
2. Adapt distinctive personality traits
3. Become more health conscious
4. Built-up physical appearance
5. Get all kind of experience
6. Widen my social group
7. Be more organized
8. Embrace my Religion

Well there you have it.

I will try to focus on these goals these years and post my progress.

I will need suggestions on how to do all of these, so please do comment and ask others to comment too.

Have you though about you resolutions?

Please do share :D

The End

It has been a very long year

but the future is unclear,

so many things had happen

but my life is still misshapen.

I started the year by entering university

hoping to achieve diversity,

but i failed to do that

and i got fat.

Though i made a lot of friends

who wear colored contact lens,

its not enough

oh! very tough.

I had some happy moments

like capturing some rodents,

like getting rid of my poker addiction

and like successful assignment submissions.

Sadness existed

feelings twisted,

with immense back pain,

i think its a sprain.

I have never felt so apart,

from family so close to my heart

but what can we do?

oooh!!

Its time to grow up,

brush up,

catch up,

and sometimes crack up

but no giving up,

or throwing up.

Well its all coming to an end

i need to blend

looking for my next friend

any u can recommend?

Looking forward for the new year

with a mind that is clear,

and heart that is dear

not looking back at the rear.

Happy New Year!

What is your new years resolution? i have not decided mine yet.

Movie Marathon

Well, i had a lot of time on my hand so i went for a movie marathon. It was fun, yet tiring.

Megamind was the first movie i saw. It is a very good animated production and a decent story line. Will Ferrel did a awesome voice over along with portraying evil can be good.

Overall rating : 6.0

Next, I watched Rapunzel, a classic Disney movie with a modern twist.It was very well made and a fine example of a family movie. However, in my opinion it should not have ended with a happy ending. The horse was hilarious and patriotic.A very fine character indeed.

Overall Rating: 7.0

This is what i saw next. It was a great follow up of the last 2 movies and had a sense of freshness as the oldest siblings were cut off from the majority of the film. A new character was added who i suppose will carry on the journey in the next movie. It was yet another nicely made movie with great graphics. Something really interesting happened while in the cinema"

AZLAN: I have another name in your world.

My friend: Knowledge??!!

Me: Nerd

I dont know what is the real story behind the name thing. Is it a lion? I am not sure. Please tell me if you know.

This ended my marathon and i had a smile on my face.

Overall Rating: 7.0

Insomnia Strikes

Well its Monday morning, 3am to be exact. So many things going on. I have been watching Supernatural for the past month and i am on my 6th season. I cannot stop watching it. It has so many aspects that we read about in my daily lives. Ahhh! i wanna watch another episode now!!! Well i guess i will wait until tomorrow.

Well you might recognize the Title for this blog. Its the blog of some one very dear to me. But, mine is better :P

Insomnia has got to me. Its either the excitement of watching another episode, or the mocha coffee i drank 5 hours ago, or denial of wanting to wake up at 9am to get ready for my class, or i dont know.

I took this time to write the blog. Maybe i will get bored with this and go to sleep and this wont get posted at all.

If you want to sleep:

1. Do not drink any kind of coffee

2. Do not take a hot shower

3. Be bored

4. GOOGLE IT!!!!

Well i guess i can sleep now.

Bye

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One step backward or one step forward?

I saw the title in one of my friend's status update, and it really caught my attention. Is is always good to move forwards?

Well I depends doesn't it? If you really want to excel you need to take a step backwards to realise the mistakes you have made, so you don't make them when you take your steps forward.

Sometimes it is just good to take a step forwards without caring about the past. This is usually at times of great sorrow such as death of a friend or a relative.

The picture is just a motivational saying. It is very well versed. In life you keep moving forwards, but if there is a backward step, you solve the problem by stepping forward.

I stumbles up on a great poem written by a friend to his sick friend.

Take a step forward

by angelmona http://www.booksie.com/poetry/poetry/angelmona

Dear J.P.

I'm writing you this letter

Hoping it'll make you feel better

As I'm sitting on my desk right now

I cry and think of thou

Oh dear friend I want to tell you, you're not alone

Bear a brain I'm here for you, I'll never say anon

I'll listen to you right away

I'll believe everything you say

I'll be your book of hope

I'll do anything to help you cope

Just promise me you won't hurt yourself

Put the suicidal thoughts on an old shelf

Leave the ugly past behind

And move a step forward

For I know happiness you'll find

And friend someday you'll shine

Trust me on this

Soon everything will be fine

I know it's hard to speak of thy pain

But sometimes it helps

Perhaps some hope you might gain

Our friendship is important to me

By the same token it'll always be

Please don't think of ending your life

Just try taking a step forward

Open your eyes and look for the bright world

You mustn't give up

Take a step forward, don't stop!!!

Sudden Scare

Today was a normal day, until I opened up my student portal and found out that once of my classes have been rescheduled to Friday. The thing is its clashing with my other class. And even if I replace in to another class, it clashed too. Panic? YES! I want to have a perfect attendance record!!!!

Anyways i ran to find the teacher but she was no way in sight. Then i went to my usual class which ended in an hour coz my teacher had a meeting. I then decided to go to the replacement for my rescheduled class, one hour late. I entered the class. Everybody turned. Shocked. I explained my self and the teacher was ok.

Now my whole afternoon and night went ok, i had dinner at subway and then ice cream from baskin robbin. Then i left my study area around 11pm and went to my house. I was at the door AND I COULDN'T FIND MY KEYS!!!!

MY HEART STOPPED, THEN IT PACED LIKE A TRAIN,THEN IT STOPPED AGAIN. I WAS CONFUSED.

This is what happened next:

I put my things down,

gave a frown,

took out all the books from my bag,

and waved it like a flag.

Nothing came out,

I gave out a shout,

walked backwards to my study area,

passed by a guy from bulgaria.

I could imagine being homeless for a night

which would not be a pleasant sight.

But there it lay,

on a table which was gray,

all i could say

Oh my precious key.

Monday blues.

We all have Monday blues. Today i set my alarm for 8am hoping i could get freshened up early, head down for breakfast and go to the computer lab to print my notes before my 10am class. But at 8am i woke up, removed my alarm and slept another 30mins. Then realizing i might get late for my class, i made a decision to sleep for another 30 mins and set the alarm for 9am. I slept deeply and woke up at 9am. Went for a shower, did some facebooking, and searched 20mins for a piece of paper with my assignment answers. It was right in front of me but i couldn't see it. Then i had only 10 mins left for my class and i takes around 10-15 mins to reach it. Well with a little bit of fast walking and long stares from people, i managed to enter my class before the teacher.(who came 10mins late!!) The rest of the day went pretty normal apart from my house mate knocking on my door telling me that HE FORGOT HE HAD AN EXAM TODAY! I couldn't believe i was hearing. How can someone forget their exams?! Well i hope he sort things out by a fake medical certificate. The I watched a couple of episodes of Supernatural, now i am writing this. Tomorrow is another day. I am actually looking forward to the next days. I don't know why.

What about you monday blues?

Back to reality

Today has been a very very hectic day. My 9 days holiday have ended. It was fun going back home to see my family, download entertainment and eat loads of good food. When i woke up today i didnt feel like going. At some point i even started coming up with excuses not to go. Well that went downhill. I got ready and left on time and was faced by massive traffic due to roadblocks because of the Marathon. Well it took me very long to get to the bus stop, and i really had to pee. So i asked my dad to drop me in front of the stairs going up to the restrooms. After i relieved myself i ran down to gather my luggage and locate my bus. It was missing. I started panicking and started running around the bus stop to find the bus. My dad found it and because of the free seating i got a seat next to an old lady. The bus was ok. It had a massage chair but i couldn't feel anything. I got bored, so i started watching videos i downloaded from MXtube. I got bored again. So i put my headphones in the miniature tele the bus had for each individual. The history of Egypt was on. I watched. Fall Alseep. I really needed to pee. The bus driver stopped at a place for about 15 minutes. I freed my self from the pressure. It felt good. Back on the highway i started watching a movie i had in my ipod. then after 30 minutes, i got bored. Then i played some games. Then suddenly i wanted to pee again. the driver won't stop. i had to suffer. I went through immense pain for nearly 2 hours. There was no hope. I was having disgusting visions of an accident and I thought the old lady would lose it. Well the bus stop came, i tool my things and ran to the toilet. Phew. JIT. Then i took a taxi and came back to my room.

Anything happen to you on a long road trip? Do share :D

AVADA KEDAVRA TOTALUS!

With a wait of almost a year, today, i got the change to finally see the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1. I do't really know how to describe it buy MAGICAL.

There I was in the cinema,

with my popcorn, coke and a

laughing at the advertisement

made with no advisement.

then when the room went dark,

the muggles saw the mark.

somebody died.

hermione cried.

But that was the past,

but this death won't be the last.

Hermione used 'obliviate'

and walked out of her parent's house gate

tears dropping down her cheek,

and she did not dare speak.

Harry farewelled his evil relatives,

but there is no need of these narratives.

the Order came that night,

but what came next was a horrific sight.

the enemy attacked,

the plan ransacked,

and the funny eyed dead.

the wedding was ambushed,

so the trio escaped.

Horcrux is what they had to search,

which led them to the ministry with a bit of research.

they met umbridge there,

but that was over with a little expelliarmus affair.

now they had the locket

which they could not pocket.

the sword was missing,

and ron went reminiscing.

Harry found the sword

and i could go on,

but what is the fun?

you have got to watch it.

Finalization

When things became final, they will impact your life in a dramatic may. They can decide your future, end your career and it can kill you.

Some thing has been finalized. Where will it lead me? In the month coming up till February, I have gotta be strong, educated, professional and a speaker so I dont let the other people who are related, down.

Challange

I am going to be starting an investment assignment which is basically asking us to trade in the LSE with 1million pounds. Its sounds interesting but it would be disastrous without good team mates. I don't know any one good in my class. Its going to be a challange that i am scared to do. Hopefully everything will turn out to be good.

Patience

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions”

(Rilke)

When the rain blows in your face, you go back to your room and log-in to facebook and be bored. A lot has happened since I last posted. I hope you have been patient. I am back in university. My internet sucks. No more poker.

NO MORE POKER! HAVE NOT PLAYED IT FOR ABOUT A MONTH!!!!

I seriously cannot believe i have survived this long. Its a test. All i gotta do is wait till i go back home and PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!

When the whole world is on you case, you say thank you and tell them that you are awesome!

I AM AWESOME!!!

I can offer you a warm embrace, but NO. I don't want to waste my time.

Patience will make your life hard, because when you are patient all the opportunities that come knocking suddenly will go away and you fail FAIL! and probably end up in fail blog who will show you a clip with 10 seconds of fail and 1 minute of adverts!

I know you havnt made up you mind yet of what you are going to do. Just SLEEP!

So Good Night

(Note: Try to figure out the song i used to create this blog)

Regrets

Ok. The subtitle of the picture is random. Regrets always hit you right on the guts. It makes you sad, gloomy and disappointed.

“Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.”

Today, I did something that I regret doing, BUT I have been doing it my ENTIRE LIFE. I had $6million dollars, which i lost. EVERY SINGLE DOLLAR. I couldn't stop betting money at high states. Its stupid. STUPID. STUPID. STUPID. If you have millions of chips in ZYNGA Poker, can you please give me chips? Thanks.

“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.”

Regrets. Sigh.

Regrets (by Taha Riaz: that is me)

As the pain begins to pass And the memories start to fade I can't help but rummage through All the grave mistakes I've made. I can't help but wonder what Would have happened if I'd fold -- when I had the chance... I could have some chips on hold :( Only now the pain sets in. For now it's certain. I'm too late. Wish I would have waited when I went all-in Wish I could somehow change my fate. So. Any comments?

Poker Face

What would you do if you get these two cards? Just imagine you with your last $100,000 chips in Texas Hold'em by Zynga. All of your chips are in the table with stakes of 5k/10k. You have folded the last hew hands and you have an instinct that you are not going to win this one. To make it more interesting your friend has Pocket Aces. He tells you his cards through the chat. Then as your friend gets AA he all-ins $80,000. You being sane, FOLD. Then the 5 cards on the board are A(c) -2(c) -7(s) - K(h) and then the river 10 of CLUBS. You could have had a win. You become so angry. It should have been the chance to be the leader among your friends but no. YOU FOLDED!

If you are a victim of this, please join the page I hate folding winning hands :@!! and lets share the bad luck.

Poker

Its a social activity, strategic game, bacteria for your finances and an obsession.

It can be many other thinks but i am not that alive at the moment to think of them. Anyways. Poker. There are a lot of games that can be included in poker such as Blackjack, Texas Hold'em and a new game that i learnt last year from my Chinese friends: Choi Tai Di. Its amazing. If you want to know more about it, either Google it or post a request for explanation in the comment box below ( points downwards, pretending its a VLOG)

Losing money is like your world has just sank in the space life Titanic. For me i regret making a wrong move. i actually question my self: why did i all-in? why am i so greedy? why? WHY?WHY??? well the answer is simple. I am INSANE. By insane i don't mean mad or crazy, i mean out of my mind, drunk, high on drugs or just sleepy.

Who is like me? maybe many....or no one? anyways. Here is a little poem on Poker addiction.

I'm Addicted to Poker by Kieto

I'm addicted to Poker and I play it everyday,
The time flies by so fast I forget what I was going to say.
Why just yesterday, I was in the middle of a hand,
When the phone rang, I picked it up and this is what I sang.

Please Mr. Bill Collector man I have a open ended straight,
Can't talk right now but I'll send that payment I know it's late.
Gonna play 3, no 4, no 5 more hands today,
Then I'll put it in an envelope so you can mark it paid.

Last time you called, I had a royal flush draw no doubt,
But because you bothered me I got timed out.
So you did your job today go away and don't bug me no more,
Let me get back to what I was doing I'm bluffing with a pair of fours.

For more poems click here

BYE

A new beginning?

Well. I have had enough. Blogging? What is it? I have had a lot of fail attempts at it. I tried and tried, but the idea of writing something and using all the features to its maximum, along with my handful of inertia, has not really imploded in my mind. I guess people do it as a hobby or to kill time or to say something that they have the right to or I do not know. Suicide?

What am I doing here? Killing time? Saying something i want to say? SUICIDE?

The answer lies in a deep deep massless nano space in my highly intelligent mind, which is locked by an invisible key. Its locked and can not be accessed unless a deep investigation has been done to decipher it. I am not joking. I am very contemplative.

If you start a blog, there is suppose to be a purpose. The purpose helps you focus your thoughts in one direction. Without focus, a sacred bond will be lost, leaving the reader with a feeling that either you or they are high on drugs. So what should my purpose be? Should I write about what happened yesterday? My dreams? My wishlist? I did deep and exuberant soul searching, by reading The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown. It opened my eyes in matters of all kind of issues that lie like a Jenga piece with no more moves on it. It showed me there is more than meet the eyes and sometimes the answer is right in front you. I don't know if you have noticed I wrote 3 paragraphs already. A quite lengthy entry i must say. Can this be an entry? I sure looks like one. What about the purpose?

Well it is yet to be developed. Today, its just about writing until sunset. So, with out further a due, my debut ORIGINAL work of masterpiece:

Figaro, Figaro, Figaro, Figaro, FIGARO! Well as you can see its quarter after one, I am a little drunk and I need you now. The California girls have nothing on you, because I love the way you lie. You lied! I am only gonna break break your break break your heart and I will be solo, ridin solo, so please stop telephoning me, go back to you Alejandro. This time baby, I will be bulletproof and a rude boy. When I get older I will be stronger, they call me freedom just like a wavin’ flag. Can this freedom let me pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars because I could really use a wish right now. I wanna be a billionaire so freakin bad, but I also wanna be forever young. Hard decision. WAKA WAKA!

Wow. That took a few minutes to write. Anyways. What do you think? Please write you comments in the comment section below 'points down' (pretending its a VLOG!)

Try to guess how many songs there are in the excerpt. Well if you didn't recognize any of the songs, then you are either a dead ghost using the internet of the person you are haunting or you are an alien. Still, all these songs are great with good meaning (like anyone cares). I am not a techno. But wouldn't it be cool if actual recording of these songs being mashed up and uploaded on Youtube!

Should I be back? Well. I am sober now (i think). Peace In.